Wednesday, December 8, 2010

the last christmas

This is my favorite time of year and it’s especially fun this year being pregnant! It just adds one more magical aspect to the Christmas season.  It’s our last holidays without these little girls, I can't wait for them to be a part (and probably the center) of all our future holidays and traditions. This is my theme song this year, the lyrics capture so many of the feelings I’ve been having lately. I was reading in Luke the other day about when Elizabeth feels John leap inside of her when Mary comes to tell her that she is pregnant- all the while feeling my babies kicking. How fun is that?
It is really amazing to feel these little babies moving around inside of me, and to see them during ultrasounds. I mean, there are people inside of me. I’m growing people. It blows my mind whenever I think about it. There are 3 beating hearts in my body. (we're counting mine, I'm still in here too, you know) 3 working brains. 6 lungs. I can feel little heads and limbs poking up into my stomach. It really is a miracle, I’m so grateful that I get to be pregnant! (and am trying to remind myself of that) I really think I'd miss it if I didn't know I'll have 2 little baby girls afterwards, it sounds boring just having me in here. 
THE LAST CHRISTMAS
I feel your heart beating
Inside my own skin
And I think of Mary
In Bethlehem
That night in a stable
Our Saviour was born
Yes, we have so much
To be thankful for
On the last Christmas
The last Christmas
Without you
They're choosing the colors
Preparing your room
For one day; Midsummer
The advent of you
Together we wait for
A heavenly gift
Is winter a wonder?
Enchanted that this is
The last Christmas
Without you
See the stars shining from above
Hear the singing
Praise to the Giver of Life and Love
Maker of Beautiful things.
I feel you heart beating
Inside my own skin
And I think of Mary
In Bethlehem
When darkness was shattered
The dawn of God's grace
And the journey'd begun
To the first Easter day
On this Christmas
The very last Christmas
Without you!
man, how is it I already love you so much little babies? I can't wait to see your sweet little faces and kiss your little toes. I'm not looking forward to changing your diapers, but I'm sure you'll be worth it. :)

2 comments:

  1. It's such an amazing feeling to feel them kick and roll around in there. And yes, you'll miss it. I sure do (even though I'm SO GLAD I'm not pregnant, I miss that movement feeling)

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  2. You'll DEFINITELY miss it! And when you're right about to have them you'll be thinking, "I just need them to come out already, this is so hard being pregnant." Then they will come out and you'll think, "Just go back it, it was SO much easier!" :) But it'll all be worth it.

    I love that song. I've never heard it before. The song in my head my whole pregnancy was Capri by Colbie Caillat.

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